Hey guys! Sorry I made you wait an extra day to hear my news. Yesterday totally got away from me!
So here it is…ya ready???
I’ve officially decided to rejoin the stay-at-home moms club! I just gave notice at my job, and my last day is in two weeks.
Here we go again!
Am I nervous about this?
Am I going to have longer days and a lighter bank account?
Am I worried that I might regret it?
I feel incredibly blessed to have been able to stay home with Mason for his first year and a half of life, and I’d like to have that same opportunity with baby #2.
Plus…let’s be real: daycare for two kiddos under 3? NOT cheap. Like, kiss-most-of-my-paycheck-goodbye kind of not cheap. Would it be worth it for my dream job? Maybe. But I’m not feeling the burning job love with my current gig, and the big sacrifices I’m making to keep it are about to become a whole lot bigger.
So I’m leaving.
Here are some things I WON’T miss:
—The commute. I’ve been driving for an hour a day, every day, for the past 10 months–and often in horrific rush hour traffic.
I never thought this could happen, but the podcasts I was so giddy about last fall are actually starting to get old. Either I don’t have enough fresh episodes to keep me going, or I’m not interested in the ones I have, or I’ve listened to the same hosts for so long that they’re starting to get on my nerves. At any rate, I’m ready to turn the podcasting thing into an occasional treat vs. a daily habit.
—The morning hustle. It’s always a little crazy getting out the door in the morning, and I can only imagine what that would be like with 2 kiddos. Plus, I have to wake Mason up almost every single morning, and it kills me. I’d love to be able to let him sleep in as long as he wants.
—Super limited parenting time. I just can’t handle only seeing my kid for two hours a day (especially when he’s sometimes cranky during those 2 hours after a full, busy day at daycare). Especially now that he’s talking and interacting a lot, I feel like I’m missing out on so much.
That said, I still think that what he’s been getting out of daycare is hugely beneficial, which is why we’ve enrolled him in a part-time preschool for the fall. He’ll be going to “school” three mornings a week, which will give both of us some much needed break time!
What I WILL miss:
—My coworkers, the adult time, and the peacefulness of a desk job. (It really did feel like a vacation after SAHM life!)
There are a few things I’d like to do differently this time to help with the adult time problem–namely, I plan to be more proactive about getting involved with mom groups, etc. (Not doing that the first time around was a huge rookie move on my part!) I think it will help that Mason is talking now, too, so at least I’ll have someone to talk to during the day.
—The extra-specialness of the time I had with Mase. It’s true that when you get less time with your kids, you savor it more. Since going back to work, I’ve had no problem focusing 100% of my attention on him when I get the chance. Once I’m at home again, I know I’ll have more opportunities to get frustrated with him, not appreciate him, or ignore him. It just goes with the territory.
—The moolah. We’ll have to cut back again, and I’ll for-real-this-time need to learn how to budget properly. But really, either way, kid #2 is coming with a hit to the income.
Other perks I’m looking forward to:
–Being able to throw a load of laundry in, whenever.
–More time to cook/prep food. (I definitely ate healthier when I was at home, thanks to the easy access to a full fridge, and there was much less frantic last-minute throwing together of dinners!)
–Not having to pump!!
–Not having to transition a 3-month-old baby to daycare.
–Yoga pants. All day. AmIRight?
So yeah…I’m definitely feeling good about this decision. (Right now, anyway…)
You might have also noticed that I said I’m leaving in 2 weeks. Mason’s enrolled in daycare through August, and baby #2 isn’t due until August 23. Soo…what will I be doing in the meantime?
Well, for one thing, I’ll be making this blog suck less. I have sooo much I want to do around here that I just haven’t had time for.
Per my motto for the summer, I’ll also be taking a few more leaps of faith. My ideal life scenario isn’t actually full-time stay-at-home-momhood–I’d love to be able to work part time doing something I love, and parent the other part.
I sort of have a master plan that I’ve been working toward for the past two years–getting my CPT, getting PiYo certified, getting my prenatal fitness cert, etc. Basically, I’ve been trying to lay the groundwork for a career shift into the fitness industry. Group exercise instruction is definitely a part of that master plan, as is some online stuff.
So my month of “free time” will be all about putting the pieces in place so I can hit the ground running post-baby-#2.
I’ll tell you more about all that soon, but suffice it to say that it’s scary (and therefore, hopefully worth it??).
And here’s the best part: I’ll also be pulling Mason out of daycare for 10 special mom-and-Mase days over the course of that month. This is partially to use up the 10 vacation days he’s accrued over the year, and partially to squeeze everything I can out of my last days as a mom to one. I plan to schedule lots of fun outings for us–the zoo, the fair, the pool, the library, the beach, the splash pad…
Basically, the biggest perks of being a SAHM in the summer, that I thought I was going to miss out on.
To say that I’m excited is a major understatement.
Now, let’s just hope baby #2 stays where he is long enough for me to make all this happen…
Here’s to the next chapter!